badly

I was actually hurt,
badly,
by your actions.
Even the slightest sad song,
could make me cry a river.
But,
was it your fault,
or was it mine?
going through the phase was not easy
it was never easy
so
stop doing what you did to me to others
that's it.
that's what makes me scared to fall for someone new.
the phase of heartbreak
was terrifying
i don't even wanna go through that again
tried forgetting you.
badly.
but i can't.
trying to move on,
but it was hard.

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kenapa

Kenapa?
Kenapa meluahkan,
Apa yang terpendam.
Kerna itu,
Yang memisahkan,
Kita berdua
Yang dahulu akrab
Bisa berbual apa saja.
Kini,
Hanya setakat bertegur sapa.
Itu pun bukannya mesra.
Sekadar menegur teman lama,
Supaya tidak dicop sombong,
Atau melupakan.

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takut

Takut.
Aku takut bersama.
Jika ditinggalkan,
Hendak memberi reaksi apa?
Hendak berduka berapa lama?
Jauh fikiranku pergi,
Mengandaikan apa akan terjadi,
Jika kita bersama.

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andai

Andai satu hari aku di posisi dia,
Yang aku sakiti tanpa sedar,
Satu waktu dulu.
Disakiti oleh pihak yang lain,
Apa yang harus aku lakukan?
Mendiam?
Pasrah?
Berpisah?
Dunia ini berputar.
Andai bukan hari ini terjadi,
Pasti esok menunggu.

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